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Sunday, March 3, 2013
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My little sassy lashes and my pixie cut.
Friday, March 1, 2013
One day at a time
Actually I am kind of taking it one hour at a time. I seriously have a post it note on my desk with the title "shit food tally" written across it. Every hour I make it without putting crap in my mouth is a huge win. So far so good. I totally need to buy gold stars at lunch.
I did go for that run last night. It went a lot better than I thought it would. It wasn't cold per say but it was windy and the wind was a bitch. I put my face mask on (most of the neighbors probably thought they were going to be invaded) and a layer of icebreaker and headed out. I did the first 1.25 miles non-stop in under 12. There are some pretty nasty hills so I walked those playing some mind games (run to the red truck loser, anyone can do that...then you can walk (maybe I need to come up with some positive run mantras, lol)). At any rate, it worked. I had so much frustration and anger to work through that I thought I had worn myself out after the first part of the run but I pushed on and got 3 miles in. Tomorrow the run group is doing 5 and I kind of want to join them but then again I could sleep in and run Sunday when it is supposed to be in the 60's. Sometimes it is best to just get it over with.
Dennis worked late last night so I took the time and contacted a friend of mine that lived in my dorm in college. She is a dietician and I wanted to get her take on my roller coaster ride. I explained to her that very few people know about my lap band but I feel that I need some help and thought she might be able to steer me in the right direction.
Her advice to me was to journal, write down what I am feeling before I stick crap in my mouth. I need to see if there is an app for that. Carbs are the go to when we are feeling overwhelmed because of the serotonin, dopamine, and tryptophan. This is also why people who diet and restrict get depressed and have sleep issues. She suggested I google Evelyn Tribole's hunger fullness scale to see if it will help me out. I haven't done that yet but it is on my to do list. She also told me that I am active and healthy and need to lay off the self flagellation. Funny enough, she is a government contractor so if we are fucked over by the sequestration crap we will be able to meet up on our forced day off and go over everything.
I also called my old personal trainer. I really liked her and was very upset when she left my gym. She is still training but on a very limited basis. She told me awhile back that she would train me for $35 and hour but I would probably only need once a week since I am pretty active on my own. I thought this would be a great accountability tool and help with my belly flab. Unfortunately she doesn't have any time slots open that will work with me.
So guy and gals looks like I am in this on my own. I can do this. I have Dennis who is awesome at telling me to go run before I kill someone. This weekend we will have a sit down and I will tell him what I need from him as far as not bringing crap into my house. I am sure that will help and also make me think twice before I bring it in since I told him that he couldn't do it. Hopefully it doesn't make me binge in my car. Yeah, I just went there.
After my run yesterday I signed up for several races. I have the St. Pattys Day 5K on the 16th, Snake run (the 3 hour option) on the 17th; as long as it isn't muddy, Race for the Well 10K on the 23rd and Run Tulsa Pink in April sometime. Just because I am not going to have 15 half marathons in the next few months doesn't mean that I can't go out and run in a group and have fun. Who knows, it might just make me faster.
As far as the day in work goes. I have seriously not talked to a single person I directly work with today. Might be a great Friday!!
I did go for that run last night. It went a lot better than I thought it would. It wasn't cold per say but it was windy and the wind was a bitch. I put my face mask on (most of the neighbors probably thought they were going to be invaded) and a layer of icebreaker and headed out. I did the first 1.25 miles non-stop in under 12. There are some pretty nasty hills so I walked those playing some mind games (run to the red truck loser, anyone can do that...then you can walk (maybe I need to come up with some positive run mantras, lol)). At any rate, it worked. I had so much frustration and anger to work through that I thought I had worn myself out after the first part of the run but I pushed on and got 3 miles in. Tomorrow the run group is doing 5 and I kind of want to join them but then again I could sleep in and run Sunday when it is supposed to be in the 60's. Sometimes it is best to just get it over with.
Dennis worked late last night so I took the time and contacted a friend of mine that lived in my dorm in college. She is a dietician and I wanted to get her take on my roller coaster ride. I explained to her that very few people know about my lap band but I feel that I need some help and thought she might be able to steer me in the right direction.
Her advice to me was to journal, write down what I am feeling before I stick crap in my mouth. I need to see if there is an app for that. Carbs are the go to when we are feeling overwhelmed because of the serotonin, dopamine, and tryptophan. This is also why people who diet and restrict get depressed and have sleep issues. She suggested I google Evelyn Tribole's hunger fullness scale to see if it will help me out. I haven't done that yet but it is on my to do list. She also told me that I am active and healthy and need to lay off the self flagellation. Funny enough, she is a government contractor so if we are fucked over by the sequestration crap we will be able to meet up on our forced day off and go over everything.
I also called my old personal trainer. I really liked her and was very upset when she left my gym. She is still training but on a very limited basis. She told me awhile back that she would train me for $35 and hour but I would probably only need once a week since I am pretty active on my own. I thought this would be a great accountability tool and help with my belly flab. Unfortunately she doesn't have any time slots open that will work with me.
So guy and gals looks like I am in this on my own. I can do this. I have Dennis who is awesome at telling me to go run before I kill someone. This weekend we will have a sit down and I will tell him what I need from him as far as not bringing crap into my house. I am sure that will help and also make me think twice before I bring it in since I told him that he couldn't do it. Hopefully it doesn't make me binge in my car. Yeah, I just went there.
After my run yesterday I signed up for several races. I have the St. Pattys Day 5K on the 16th, Snake run (the 3 hour option) on the 17th; as long as it isn't muddy, Race for the Well 10K on the 23rd and Run Tulsa Pink in April sometime. Just because I am not going to have 15 half marathons in the next few months doesn't mean that I can't go out and run in a group and have fun. Who knows, it might just make me faster.
As far as the day in work goes. I have seriously not talked to a single person I directly work with today. Might be a great Friday!!
Thursday, February 28, 2013
thank god it's friday eve
1. I am still a non stop eating machine. Pretty sure I have eaten at least 7 oreos since lunch, which was two fast food tacos :'(
2. Took my "baby" Hunter to the vet yesterday to get his stitches out. He always makes me a proud and happy momma. He did great of course and located the treats right away (related to his mom much?)
Afterwards I took him to McDonald's for chicken nuggets. I swear that dog can see the Golden Arches a block away.
And of course then he had to act like he was a really good boy so he could con as many out of me as possible.
I even bit them in two so he wouldn't get choked on them. Those things make me gag. There are no limits to what I would do for my boy. He better appreciate it. At least there was no chance of me eating them, blech. I just love my guys so much.
3. After the vet and getting Hunter settled in Dennis and I went to eat. I got sirloin tips with peppers and onions and fries. Believe it or not the fries were gross so I didn't eat them. I looked up the calories on the steak and it says 397, so again, if it hadn't been for the crap food I ate sitting around work yesterday I would have been fine on calories.
4. And you would think I would have learned my lesson but I had to have some brown socks to wear with my new outfit today so we went by Target to get some after dinner. Well me being the smart person I am bought candy to restock my friends candy dish that I single handed emptied. You would think I would get some stuff that I hate but nope. More snickers, m&m, 3 musketeers, twix....ya know, the good stuff. I should have gotten payday and butterfingers because gross. I am my own worse enemy.
5. My plan is to run when I get off work. Even if it is just a block. It is 46 degrees outside but the wind is horrible. Hey that is what face masks are for right? Plus there is always the gym. I will not be running in the fitness room at work.
6. I am going shopping with my mom and sister either at lunch or after work tomorrow. I don't know that I will feel like buying much since I don't feel particularly good about myself but you never know. Purses always fit, just ask my closet full of purses.
7. I am going to get my nails done on Saturday. I figured I might as well live it up before they furlough me!!
8. I think I am going to go buy some flowers at Whole Foods this weekend to put on my desk. Maybe it will help my mood. When/if someone asks what they are for I will tell them it's just because this place sucks and I needed something pleasant to look at. Ok, maybe not.
9. I no longer feel sick. Man strep is a real pain in the ass. I haven't taken NyQuil in two nights. The withdraws really suck, lol
10. I called my doctor's office today to see about getting a fill. I told the nurse that I want to be really tight for awhile until things kind of calm down. If he is unable to unwilling to do that I will ask him if he can give me something for anxiety or refer me to a counselor for awhile. Since I was self pay I never had to do the psych screenings. There is a sports nutritionist who runs with our group but the thing is I know what to do I am just not doing it. I would rather pay a personal trainer who I turned my food log into and kicked my butt for every m&m I eat. My appointment is March 11 so we will see....
2. Took my "baby" Hunter to the vet yesterday to get his stitches out. He always makes me a proud and happy momma. He did great of course and located the treats right away (related to his mom much?)
3. After the vet and getting Hunter settled in Dennis and I went to eat. I got sirloin tips with peppers and onions and fries. Believe it or not the fries were gross so I didn't eat them. I looked up the calories on the steak and it says 397, so again, if it hadn't been for the crap food I ate sitting around work yesterday I would have been fine on calories.
4. And you would think I would have learned my lesson but I had to have some brown socks to wear with my new outfit today so we went by Target to get some after dinner. Well me being the smart person I am bought candy to restock my friends candy dish that I single handed emptied. You would think I would get some stuff that I hate but nope. More snickers, m&m, 3 musketeers, twix....ya know, the good stuff. I should have gotten payday and butterfingers because gross. I am my own worse enemy.
5. My plan is to run when I get off work. Even if it is just a block. It is 46 degrees outside but the wind is horrible. Hey that is what face masks are for right? Plus there is always the gym. I will not be running in the fitness room at work.
6. I am going shopping with my mom and sister either at lunch or after work tomorrow. I don't know that I will feel like buying much since I don't feel particularly good about myself but you never know. Purses always fit, just ask my closet full of purses.
7. I am going to get my nails done on Saturday. I figured I might as well live it up before they furlough me!!
8. I think I am going to go buy some flowers at Whole Foods this weekend to put on my desk. Maybe it will help my mood. When/if someone asks what they are for I will tell them it's just because this place sucks and I needed something pleasant to look at. Ok, maybe not.
9. I no longer feel sick. Man strep is a real pain in the ass. I haven't taken NyQuil in two nights. The withdraws really suck, lol
10. I called my doctor's office today to see about getting a fill. I told the nurse that I want to be really tight for awhile until things kind of calm down. If he is unable to unwilling to do that I will ask him if he can give me something for anxiety or refer me to a counselor for awhile. Since I was self pay I never had to do the psych screenings. There is a sports nutritionist who runs with our group but the thing is I know what to do I am just not doing it. I would rather pay a personal trainer who I turned my food log into and kicked my butt for every m&m I eat. My appointment is March 11 so we will see....
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
Once an addict
So as I wrote my blog yesterday about how I really need to start over and eat healthy I was eating "fun sized" Snickers and Hershey bars. I am not proud.
Looking back I am not sure that I ever committed to healthy eating. I have used my band to control my portions and somewhat stayed away from slider foods but I still ate pretty much whatever the fuck I wanted, just significantly less of it. I know this is not what the band is about and not how I should use it but I just can't seem to get a handle on things.
My meals were actually pretty good yesterday, chicken caesar pasta at about 400 calories per serving for dinner (of course I didn't eat a full serving) and about a third of leftover whole wheat baked ziti for lunch. If I hadn't snarfed on chocolate and root beer all day it would have been a win.
Then there is the peanut butter addiction. I saw something online the other day that eating peanut butter out of the jar is a huge pitfall, about 140 calories per spoonful. I don't know about you but I know I eat more than a couple of those bad boys. I had been eating it for breakfast but now I am scared to death to open the jar, afraid I will fall in face first.
The keyboard for my new Kindle came in the mail today so I stopped on my way back to work to get batteries and I picked up Reese's peanut butter eggs and golden oreos. The cashier had trouble getting the pb eggs to ring in so I told her to put them back but the oreos went through just fine. I need to put the oreos out in the shared food area at work just so I won't eat them all, even though I hate work and everything and everyone that goes along with it. What better reason to give them diabetes I guess.
I just can't get past this feeling that I am a complete and utter failure. I am sure that the work crap is adding to that but regardless I need to find my way out of it.
Another problem is that I haven't worked out since Saturday the 16th. I need to do something, even if it is just giving Dexter a concussion with a kettle bell, poor dog. I am really just now starting to feel like myself again after having strep, and I am more than capable of doing some kind of physical activity I just haven't, too cold, too wet. Tomorrow I tell myself.
I am taking off an hour early from work (45 more minutes!!) to have Hunter's stitches taken out from his surgery last week. Later Dennis and I are going out to eat because I have a groupon that expires today. More food.
I could go in and get a fill but I don't think the problem is with the band, it is with my mental health and just generally stuffing my stress and feelings with crap.
I'm not sure what to do.
Looking back I am not sure that I ever committed to healthy eating. I have used my band to control my portions and somewhat stayed away from slider foods but I still ate pretty much whatever the fuck I wanted, just significantly less of it. I know this is not what the band is about and not how I should use it but I just can't seem to get a handle on things.
My meals were actually pretty good yesterday, chicken caesar pasta at about 400 calories per serving for dinner (of course I didn't eat a full serving) and about a third of leftover whole wheat baked ziti for lunch. If I hadn't snarfed on chocolate and root beer all day it would have been a win.
Then there is the peanut butter addiction. I saw something online the other day that eating peanut butter out of the jar is a huge pitfall, about 140 calories per spoonful. I don't know about you but I know I eat more than a couple of those bad boys. I had been eating it for breakfast but now I am scared to death to open the jar, afraid I will fall in face first.
The keyboard for my new Kindle came in the mail today so I stopped on my way back to work to get batteries and I picked up Reese's peanut butter eggs and golden oreos. The cashier had trouble getting the pb eggs to ring in so I told her to put them back but the oreos went through just fine. I need to put the oreos out in the shared food area at work just so I won't eat them all, even though I hate work and everything and everyone that goes along with it. What better reason to give them diabetes I guess.
I just can't get past this feeling that I am a complete and utter failure. I am sure that the work crap is adding to that but regardless I need to find my way out of it.
Another problem is that I haven't worked out since Saturday the 16th. I need to do something, even if it is just giving Dexter a concussion with a kettle bell, poor dog. I am really just now starting to feel like myself again after having strep, and I am more than capable of doing some kind of physical activity I just haven't, too cold, too wet. Tomorrow I tell myself.
I am taking off an hour early from work (45 more minutes!!) to have Hunter's stitches taken out from his surgery last week. Later Dennis and I are going out to eat because I have a groupon that expires today. More food.
I could go in and get a fill but I don't think the problem is with the band, it is with my mental health and just generally stuffing my stress and feelings with crap.
I'm not sure what to do.
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
moving on
So to update my work situation, called in on Friday because I knew I was too mad to talk to the boss about what was going on. I went shopping instead (Loft had an awesome sale!!)
When I got to work yesterday I had an email that said she needed to see me first thing. Well I wasn't going to walk in there until she called me, which she did shortly after I sat down. I went into her office and sat down and she started in that she was NOT my enemy but she was my supervisor and that I was not to ever tell her that something she tells me is inappropriate!! I stood up and said this is obviously going to get ugly because you can’t tell me what I can't say to you and refused to talk further until we get the EEO mediator up to set in on the meeting. I could tell by the look on her face that she wasn’t expecting that at all. I think she also realized that I forwarded the emails to the EEO lady. She changed her tune when the mediator got there and was all of a sudden just trying to help me. I let her know that I that by leaving that message and being gone the next day she was being a bully and it was in no way the right thing to do (to which the mediator agreed). The position that I am over has turned into a training position and I have a new employee every 6 months so it isn’t fair to expect me to get the same amount and quality of work out as the other lead that is the lead over someone who has been doing the same job for eons. It is hard enough to do my job but I also have to assign a new person work, train them, answer all their questions, review the work and keep up with all the other meetings and crap I have to do.
I seriously doubt if anything changes, but I do feel good about standing up for myself and the boss will be retiring this summer anyway. She told me that everything was forgotten when I left the office but I still have very little respect or trust in her.
I guess we will find out Friday if we will get our 22 furlough days. I am kind of torn. No, I don’t want to lose 20% of my pay but one less day a week in this place sure sounds nice. I know I could get a part time job on the weekends but since we pretty much live on my paycheck anyway I think it will be ok if I just start letting Dennis contribute to the cell phones, cable, insurance, etc.
Since HMF backed out of the Austin trip last week (I am so done with it) and I am not going to run Oklahoma City this year that will save some money. I will do Joplin but I have a hotel paid for with points and gas shouldn’t be too much, it is about an hour away. I really want to do St. Louis and Springfield too but since they are in the fall I have some time to plan and save up.
Since obviously my life revolves around running I am about to go nuts. I haven’t ran in 10 days. I wanted to last night, the weather was perfect, low 40’s and light rain. But, they were calling for a blizzard and I had to make the obligatory grocery trip. Of course the blizzard didn’t happen and we are just stuck with wet roads. I may go to the gym and run tonight but it isn’t the same on the TM. I really don’t want to run with my work friend, I don’t want to be around anything that has to do with work once I am off the clock.
I am going to have to start watching my diet again. I need to go in and see the band doctor but I really don’t need to take off work since I was off most of last week. I know I could use a small fill but I probably just need to start watching what I put in my mouth instead of relying on the band to restrict the amount of food. I have really been eating crap food. It doesn’t help when Dennis brings home 4 boxes of girl scout cookies. We are down to the thin mints, which I don’t care for but you know I am eating them by the handful. I haven’t really logged since after my surgery but I think I really need to start doing that again. I know my calories aren’t that high but the lack of quality in those calories makes a huge difference. Stress and being sick is really making it hard for me.
When I got to work yesterday I had an email that said she needed to see me first thing. Well I wasn't going to walk in there until she called me, which she did shortly after I sat down. I went into her office and sat down and she started in that she was NOT my enemy but she was my supervisor and that I was not to ever tell her that something she tells me is inappropriate!! I stood up and said this is obviously going to get ugly because you can’t tell me what I can't say to you and refused to talk further until we get the EEO mediator up to set in on the meeting. I could tell by the look on her face that she wasn’t expecting that at all. I think she also realized that I forwarded the emails to the EEO lady. She changed her tune when the mediator got there and was all of a sudden just trying to help me. I let her know that I that by leaving that message and being gone the next day she was being a bully and it was in no way the right thing to do (to which the mediator agreed). The position that I am over has turned into a training position and I have a new employee every 6 months so it isn’t fair to expect me to get the same amount and quality of work out as the other lead that is the lead over someone who has been doing the same job for eons. It is hard enough to do my job but I also have to assign a new person work, train them, answer all their questions, review the work and keep up with all the other meetings and crap I have to do.
I seriously doubt if anything changes, but I do feel good about standing up for myself and the boss will be retiring this summer anyway. She told me that everything was forgotten when I left the office but I still have very little respect or trust in her.
I guess we will find out Friday if we will get our 22 furlough days. I am kind of torn. No, I don’t want to lose 20% of my pay but one less day a week in this place sure sounds nice. I know I could get a part time job on the weekends but since we pretty much live on my paycheck anyway I think it will be ok if I just start letting Dennis contribute to the cell phones, cable, insurance, etc.
Since HMF backed out of the Austin trip last week (I am so done with it) and I am not going to run Oklahoma City this year that will save some money. I will do Joplin but I have a hotel paid for with points and gas shouldn’t be too much, it is about an hour away. I really want to do St. Louis and Springfield too but since they are in the fall I have some time to plan and save up.
Since obviously my life revolves around running I am about to go nuts. I haven’t ran in 10 days. I wanted to last night, the weather was perfect, low 40’s and light rain. But, they were calling for a blizzard and I had to make the obligatory grocery trip. Of course the blizzard didn’t happen and we are just stuck with wet roads. I may go to the gym and run tonight but it isn’t the same on the TM. I really don’t want to run with my work friend, I don’t want to be around anything that has to do with work once I am off the clock.
I am going to have to start watching my diet again. I need to go in and see the band doctor but I really don’t need to take off work since I was off most of last week. I know I could use a small fill but I probably just need to start watching what I put in my mouth instead of relying on the band to restrict the amount of food. I have really been eating crap food. It doesn’t help when Dennis brings home 4 boxes of girl scout cookies. We are down to the thin mints, which I don’t care for but you know I am eating them by the handful. I haven’t really logged since after my surgery but I think I really need to start doing that again. I know my calories aren’t that high but the lack of quality in those calories makes a huge difference. Stress and being sick is really making it hard for me.
Thursday, February 21, 2013
really hate my job right now
I am back at work today but would give anything to have stayed home.
My boss is gone today but left me a really nasty message telling me that a co-worker had to finish a project because I was out sick. I had all the research done and a draft report but hadn't made the changes or set it up the way they wanted it (which I didn't know, just knew what I did wasn't what they wanted). Anyway, I was told that having to assign my work to other people is unacceptable. OK, if I had been here I would have done it.
Then she finishes the message by telling me my office area needs cleaned up, that my area is a disgrace and a poor example to other employees. If she doesn't see a "marked improvement" I will not have a good mid-year review and that I am on the brink of failure in the position I am in.
Seriously? WTF!!! I really just want to pack my stuff up and tell her that if I suck that bad then to move me, I don't need this kind of stress over one assignment and a freaking unorganized area.
So now I am crying and that makes me even more upset!!
My boss is gone today but left me a really nasty message telling me that a co-worker had to finish a project because I was out sick. I had all the research done and a draft report but hadn't made the changes or set it up the way they wanted it (which I didn't know, just knew what I did wasn't what they wanted). Anyway, I was told that having to assign my work to other people is unacceptable. OK, if I had been here I would have done it.
Then she finishes the message by telling me my office area needs cleaned up, that my area is a disgrace and a poor example to other employees. If she doesn't see a "marked improvement" I will not have a good mid-year review and that I am on the brink of failure in the position I am in.
Seriously? WTF!!! I really just want to pack my stuff up and tell her that if I suck that bad then to move me, I don't need this kind of stress over one assignment and a freaking unorganized area.
So now I am crying and that makes me even more upset!!
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
sick day
I am on day 2 of sick leave for strep throat. I do feel better and maybe could have worked at least part of the day but I still have a little fever and it is snowing outside and I didn't want to have to deal with that on top of being sick. I will have to suck it up and go in tomorrow regardless.
Am I the only one who watches court tv while they are home sick? I am watching a trail of this really straight laced looking girl who killed her boyfriend and is telling all the explicit stories about their sex life that are making me blush. They know she killed him but they are trying to decide if they are going to give her the needle or not. I would have never suspected this girl to be someone who could brutally kill someone. At one point she told police that Ninja's killed her boyfriend. Oh, lord.
Eating has kind of sucked. All I want is root beer. Water tastes so gross to me and I'm really not even hungry, I just want root beer, and I have drank my body weight in it over the last few days.
When I was a kid I used to have strange dreams about my mom's iced tea when I was sick. I figure it has something to do with running a fever and the dehydration it causes. I had those dreams again but this time with A&W.
I did run on Saturday and felt good. My knee kind of felt wonky on the way back so I slowed down a little but over all it was a great run. I cheated my ass off with the cards and got a really cute pink for the cure New Balance shirt with a dog theme. It is the perfect shirt for me.
Hunter's surgery went well even though he gave the vet a few problems, which is so unlike him. He held his breath while they were putting him under. When they got him under and turned the gas down he got up while they were trying to shave the area the growth was on. It freaked the vet out because Hunter is the most compliant dog ever but we had a good laugh about it when I picked him up. He gets his stitches out a week from today and he hasn't even seemed to notice they are there. He is such a good boy. Oh, and we did tell the vet we didn't want to know if it was cancer since he is too old for treatment. They understood and told us they were 99% sure it is fine.
Got my last shot in the knee on Monday. I thought about cancelling it since I was so sick but since I was out with Hunter anyway I just got it over with. It didn't hurt at all this time, just a little discomfort. My knee is feeling almost normal now. Of course I haven't done much to test it out. I am just so glad that is over. Maybe this time it will last for a year.
I'm pretty sure the Austin trip for the 10/20 isn't going to happen. I am pretty sure the friend I was going to go with is going to back out. I don't really want to go solo. I hope it all works out though, we had a blast last year. We need to get it figured out because it is in April and I need to know if I should buy a plane ticket or not. I am not good at waiting until the last minute.
Regardless, I have decided to do my first trail run. It is called the Snake Run and instead of it being a certain distance it is either 3 or 6 hours and you run however far you can in that time limit. I signed up once before but it had snowed and I am not a fan of mud. Hopefully the weather will hold up and that won't be a problem this year.
It's Nyquil time. Gotta make the most of it since I will have to go to work tomorrow.
Am I the only one who watches court tv while they are home sick? I am watching a trail of this really straight laced looking girl who killed her boyfriend and is telling all the explicit stories about their sex life that are making me blush. They know she killed him but they are trying to decide if they are going to give her the needle or not. I would have never suspected this girl to be someone who could brutally kill someone. At one point she told police that Ninja's killed her boyfriend. Oh, lord.
Eating has kind of sucked. All I want is root beer. Water tastes so gross to me and I'm really not even hungry, I just want root beer, and I have drank my body weight in it over the last few days.
When I was a kid I used to have strange dreams about my mom's iced tea when I was sick. I figure it has something to do with running a fever and the dehydration it causes. I had those dreams again but this time with A&W.
I did run on Saturday and felt good. My knee kind of felt wonky on the way back so I slowed down a little but over all it was a great run. I cheated my ass off with the cards and got a really cute pink for the cure New Balance shirt with a dog theme. It is the perfect shirt for me.
Hunter's surgery went well even though he gave the vet a few problems, which is so unlike him. He held his breath while they were putting him under. When they got him under and turned the gas down he got up while they were trying to shave the area the growth was on. It freaked the vet out because Hunter is the most compliant dog ever but we had a good laugh about it when I picked him up. He gets his stitches out a week from today and he hasn't even seemed to notice they are there. He is such a good boy. Oh, and we did tell the vet we didn't want to know if it was cancer since he is too old for treatment. They understood and told us they were 99% sure it is fine.
Got my last shot in the knee on Monday. I thought about cancelling it since I was so sick but since I was out with Hunter anyway I just got it over with. It didn't hurt at all this time, just a little discomfort. My knee is feeling almost normal now. Of course I haven't done much to test it out. I am just so glad that is over. Maybe this time it will last for a year.
I'm pretty sure the Austin trip for the 10/20 isn't going to happen. I am pretty sure the friend I was going to go with is going to back out. I don't really want to go solo. I hope it all works out though, we had a blast last year. We need to get it figured out because it is in April and I need to know if I should buy a plane ticket or not. I am not good at waiting until the last minute.
Regardless, I have decided to do my first trail run. It is called the Snake Run and instead of it being a certain distance it is either 3 or 6 hours and you run however far you can in that time limit. I signed up once before but it had snowed and I am not a fan of mud. Hopefully the weather will hold up and that won't be a problem this year.
It's Nyquil time. Gotta make the most of it since I will have to go to work tomorrow.
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