Monday, September 30, 2013
Sunday, September 29, 2013
more bad news
http://hunterslumpycancer.blogspot.com/
Unfortunately there is no happy ending. The vet told us we probably had 3 months but I found him dead Thursday at lunch. We are lost without him.
i
Unfortunately there is no happy ending. The vet told us we probably had 3 months but I found him dead Thursday at lunch. We are lost without him.
i
Thursday, September 26, 2013
New blog
I started a blog following Hunter's cancer and treatment. I will probably post to it more than my regular blog for awhile.
Wednesday, September 18, 2013
SERIOUSLY?
I swear I am stuck in a nightmare. Just when I think things
can't get any worse crash. Literally, I get into a car accident on my way to
work. Oh, don't worry, it was all my fault so I get a $150 citation for failure
to yield (I was turning left on a green and the lady going straight across from
me was driving faster than I anticipated because she was putting make-up on) on
top of whatever the repair bill will be. I am trying to get pictures uploaded
from the new phone so I can post them. It appears to be cosmetic but I fully
expect my car to blow up in the parking lot sometime before lunch. Yes both of
us walked away from it without a scratch, both of the cars were driven away from
the accident. I will probably get to drive Kermit around with a nice little
battle scar for a long time. Regardless, I am ready to have myself locked in a
padded cell and cry nonstop for a few days/weeks/months. again.
I went to my band doctor yesterday and had the fluid removed again just to be on the safe side. I don't have much in there but until I get my appetite back and the inflammation subsides a bit I want to remove that obstacle as much as I can. I know from experience that once everything is inflamed it will eventually effect my ability to eat and not get stuck. Just trying to be proactive. I need to call my GI doctor and see what I need to do to get a the swallow test booked. The lung doctor said something about it but didn't add it to the gamete of tests he wants me to do. OH, and my weight was at 121 after drinking my required amount of fluids and with my old lady outfit. I figure I am close to that 118 mark. I did get a couple of higher calorie meals down, under the recommendation of my band doctor. I took the Zofran for nausea and didn't have any issues. I am supposed to go back on drinking a protein smoothie for breakfast but that just sounds
right now with the mucus taste that persists. Sorry I went there. Nothing sounds
or tastes good.
I went to my band doctor yesterday and had the fluid removed again just to be on the safe side. I don't have much in there but until I get my appetite back and the inflammation subsides a bit I want to remove that obstacle as much as I can. I know from experience that once everything is inflamed it will eventually effect my ability to eat and not get stuck. Just trying to be proactive. I need to call my GI doctor and see what I need to do to get a the swallow test booked. The lung doctor said something about it but didn't add it to the gamete of tests he wants me to do. OH, and my weight was at 121 after drinking my required amount of fluids and with my old lady outfit. I figure I am close to that 118 mark. I did get a couple of higher calorie meals down, under the recommendation of my band doctor. I took the Zofran for nausea and didn't have any issues. I am supposed to go back on drinking a protein smoothie for breakfast but that just sounds
right now with the mucus taste that persists. Sorry I went there. Nothing sounds
or tastes good. Monday, September 9, 2013
Feeling human
I have been fever free for 6 whole hours!!! For the first
time in a month I am starting to feel like I might live through this after all
Believe me, there were times I doubted and times that I begged Dennis just to
finish me off.
I got a lot of rest over the weekend. I went to Sam's on Saturday I didn't browse like I normally would, I got what I needed and left. If only I could stick to that plan more often. A normal trip to Sam's is at least $150 but I got out for $80. I have been browsing pintrest and finding lots of crock pot recipes because I know the first week or so back at work is going to be rough, it will be so much easier to have dinner ready when I get home. I should have plenty of stuff to keep us fed for awhile. When I got home I took a 2 hour nap. Guess it wore me out more than I thought.
Yesterday I was feeling ok so I went to the grocery store to get the things I didn't want to buy in bulk. Again it was a short trip but I literally slept all day when I got home. Maybe that is why I am feeling better? A little rest can work wonders.
Sunday morning and afternoon I had another fever spike of over 102. They didn't last like the others have and I haven't had any more issues. It is the strangest thing. I just hope it is over. I keep waiting to get that feeling; you know the one you get when your fever starts to get high? So far so good. I am dosing with tylenol and ibuprofen just in case.
I am finally starting to think about running again, I mean not like tomorrow but like it might be a possibility in the near future. I need to call and cancel my hotel reservation for St. Louis but I am for sure going to do it next year. I asked my dad to walk the Mother Road half with me here in Tulsa the Sunday before Thanksgiving. If I sign up on my own I know I will try and run it and I am not sure I will be ready. My dad is a walker and I might have to jog to keep up with him but it will keep me in check. Last year I PR’ed by 10 minutes and I don't want to push myself just yet. For now I am making plans for Little Rock - which I am calling the redemption run, this is the one I did 2 years ago and the guy collapsed and died as I was passing him, I helped render first aid for at least 30 minutes until they could get paramedics to him and another 10 until the ambulance got there. This is in March and I think I have a roommate lined up, I need to check with her, either way I really feel like I need a do over on this one. OKC is in April. I didn't do this last year but I will do it this year if I have to run it without any of my fellow running friends. Joplin is in May, it is also on Dennis birthday. I think he is old enough that he really doesn't care and I will home in time to take him to dinner. He might have to carry me though, something about a long car ride after a 13 mile run is hell on the legs.
The coolest thing I found is a half marathon in Yellowstone!! It isn't actually in the park but it is in West Yellowstone right by the west entrance. I have never wanted to do a half marathon so bad in my life!! Getting there will be a logistical nightmare. My parents love Yellowstone and would drive up there in a heartbeat. However, when I was a preteen and into my early teens I was forced to go on family vacations every summer with my little sister in a car packed so full you couldn't put your feet in the floor of the car. We drove for 2 weeks straight!! It was miserable; wake up at the butt crack of dawn eat breakfast ( I hate pretty much all breakfast food, the smell of eggs make me gag and pork cause gastro problems of epic proportions), stop for linner (late lunch/early dinner because it is cheaper) stay at a Motel 6 (otherwise known to a preteen as hell) get to the hotel right before dark then get up and do it all over again. Oh, plus you had to be quiet so my dad could sleep so he could get up and drive at dark thirty while the rest of us tried to sleep in the same room with my dad snoring so loud I am sure the people in the rooms around us could hear it. My mom isn't physically active so when we did stay a few days at Yellowstone we sat and watch old faithful go off 7,892 times. So, it may cost me $1,000 to fly but I am so not driving to Wyoming EVER AGAIN. Hell, I fly to Dallas and it is only 4 hours away. I think I have family vacation PTSD.
My appetite is finally starting to come back a little at a time. I am still taking a nausea pill before I eat but I haven’t had any issues!! Again, I blame the antibiotics. Dennis said if I am hungry at dinner time he will take me to my favorite dive...whose motto is eat more gravy. You can't go wrong with that!!
Tomorrow I am going to go in to work for an hour or so. Our RE attorney from Division is here and I have a lot of questions I need to ask her about a project that can blow up in our faces big time. Everyone is so in love with this multimillion dollar project that they don't seem to notice these little issues that can pretty much cause lots of problems when the sponsor tries to get credit for the work someone else is doing. Don't get me wrong, the project has the potential to be awesome but it can also get us in some legal hot water if they don't start listen to what I have been trying to tell them. I think having the big gun there might just force them to take a second look at the potential issues.
Wednesday is my appointment with the lung specialist!! I sure hope he has some definitive answers for me!!
Believe me, there were times I doubted and times that I begged Dennis just to
finish me off. I got a lot of rest over the weekend. I went to Sam's on Saturday I didn't browse like I normally would, I got what I needed and left. If only I could stick to that plan more often. A normal trip to Sam's is at least $150 but I got out for $80. I have been browsing pintrest and finding lots of crock pot recipes because I know the first week or so back at work is going to be rough, it will be so much easier to have dinner ready when I get home. I should have plenty of stuff to keep us fed for awhile. When I got home I took a 2 hour nap. Guess it wore me out more than I thought.
Yesterday I was feeling ok so I went to the grocery store to get the things I didn't want to buy in bulk. Again it was a short trip but I literally slept all day when I got home. Maybe that is why I am feeling better? A little rest can work wonders.
Sunday morning and afternoon I had another fever spike of over 102. They didn't last like the others have and I haven't had any more issues. It is the strangest thing. I just hope it is over. I keep waiting to get that feeling; you know the one you get when your fever starts to get high? So far so good. I am dosing with tylenol and ibuprofen just in case.
I am finally starting to think about running again, I mean not like tomorrow but like it might be a possibility in the near future. I need to call and cancel my hotel reservation for St. Louis but I am for sure going to do it next year. I asked my dad to walk the Mother Road half with me here in Tulsa the Sunday before Thanksgiving. If I sign up on my own I know I will try and run it and I am not sure I will be ready. My dad is a walker and I might have to jog to keep up with him but it will keep me in check. Last year I PR’ed by 10 minutes and I don't want to push myself just yet. For now I am making plans for Little Rock - which I am calling the redemption run, this is the one I did 2 years ago and the guy collapsed and died as I was passing him, I helped render first aid for at least 30 minutes until they could get paramedics to him and another 10 until the ambulance got there. This is in March and I think I have a roommate lined up, I need to check with her, either way I really feel like I need a do over on this one. OKC is in April. I didn't do this last year but I will do it this year if I have to run it without any of my fellow running friends. Joplin is in May, it is also on Dennis birthday. I think he is old enough that he really doesn't care and I will home in time to take him to dinner. He might have to carry me though, something about a long car ride after a 13 mile run is hell on the legs.
The coolest thing I found is a half marathon in Yellowstone!! It isn't actually in the park but it is in West Yellowstone right by the west entrance. I have never wanted to do a half marathon so bad in my life!! Getting there will be a logistical nightmare. My parents love Yellowstone and would drive up there in a heartbeat. However, when I was a preteen and into my early teens I was forced to go on family vacations every summer with my little sister in a car packed so full you couldn't put your feet in the floor of the car. We drove for 2 weeks straight!! It was miserable; wake up at the butt crack of dawn eat breakfast ( I hate pretty much all breakfast food, the smell of eggs make me gag and pork cause gastro problems of epic proportions), stop for linner (late lunch/early dinner because it is cheaper) stay at a Motel 6 (otherwise known to a preteen as hell) get to the hotel right before dark then get up and do it all over again. Oh, plus you had to be quiet so my dad could sleep so he could get up and drive at dark thirty while the rest of us tried to sleep in the same room with my dad snoring so loud I am sure the people in the rooms around us could hear it. My mom isn't physically active so when we did stay a few days at Yellowstone we sat and watch old faithful go off 7,892 times. So, it may cost me $1,000 to fly but I am so not driving to Wyoming EVER AGAIN. Hell, I fly to Dallas and it is only 4 hours away. I think I have family vacation PTSD.
My appetite is finally starting to come back a little at a time. I am still taking a nausea pill before I eat but I haven’t had any issues!! Again, I blame the antibiotics. Dennis said if I am hungry at dinner time he will take me to my favorite dive...whose motto is eat more gravy. You can't go wrong with that!!
Tomorrow I am going to go in to work for an hour or so. Our RE attorney from Division is here and I have a lot of questions I need to ask her about a project that can blow up in our faces big time. Everyone is so in love with this multimillion dollar project that they don't seem to notice these little issues that can pretty much cause lots of problems when the sponsor tries to get credit for the work someone else is doing. Don't get me wrong, the project has the potential to be awesome but it can also get us in some legal hot water if they don't start listen to what I have been trying to tell them. I think having the big gun there might just force them to take a second look at the potential issues.
Wednesday is my appointment with the lung specialist!! I sure hope he has some definitive answers for me!!
Tuesday, September 3, 2013
Bring on fall
I am not around much because I feel like all I do is complain about being sick. I mean it has been a month now, I'm calling uncle!! When I do get on the computer it is for work and when I get home I just kind of pass out. I am finally to that stage where I want to do things but it usually falls short in execution. I know you guys are as tired of hearing me talk about it as I am talking about it.
On that note, if one more person at work comes up to me and tells me they understand how I feel because they aren't feeling well, they are getting punched in the throat as soon as I can muster the energy. For one, I envy your allergy issues. I understand it is miserable it's allergies, suck it up buttercup. And, if you really are sick...stay the fuck away from me. I am still having to lay down and rest in the middle of the day, I don't need your germs making me sick again.
OK, enough of that. Well, really that is all I've got. Right now I am working on getting an appetite back. I am on antibiotics until the end of the week so even when I am hungry everything has that gross metalic taste. Same goes for trying to get liquids down. I would so stop taking the medication if I hadn't relapsed already.
Next week I go to the lung doctor. Not really sure what he can tell me that I haven't already heard but what the hell, I'm game.
I have started thinking about the gym. I let my gym membership lapse during the furlough so I think I will shop around a little. I know there is a Gold's about the same distance as my other gym that has a pool, which I am sure will come in handy, but I have not heard anything good about it. I haven't actually been inside so I need to go and judge for myself. There is always the Y but the one close to me is in a really bad part of town, granted it has a nice pool, the other one is clear across town. I went last year with a groupon but I had a friend going with me, I know I will not go alone.
What I want is to wake up early and run when it is 60 degrees. That isn't going to happen for awhile. I am pretty sure I am going to have to skip St. Louis. I am not making any decisions right now but seriously, I don't see a half marathon in me next month. I have high hopes for finishing Route 66 in November but I don't see another PR. I am going to call the fall running season a wash and start ramping up the pintrest training plans for spring.
Man I feel like a debbie downer. I really am feeling better!!
On that note, if one more person at work comes up to me and tells me they understand how I feel because they aren't feeling well, they are getting punched in the throat as soon as I can muster the energy. For one, I envy your allergy issues. I understand it is miserable it's allergies, suck it up buttercup. And, if you really are sick...stay the fuck away from me. I am still having to lay down and rest in the middle of the day, I don't need your germs making me sick again.
OK, enough of that. Well, really that is all I've got. Right now I am working on getting an appetite back. I am on antibiotics until the end of the week so even when I am hungry everything has that gross metalic taste. Same goes for trying to get liquids down. I would so stop taking the medication if I hadn't relapsed already.
Next week I go to the lung doctor. Not really sure what he can tell me that I haven't already heard but what the hell, I'm game.
I have started thinking about the gym. I let my gym membership lapse during the furlough so I think I will shop around a little. I know there is a Gold's about the same distance as my other gym that has a pool, which I am sure will come in handy, but I have not heard anything good about it. I haven't actually been inside so I need to go and judge for myself. There is always the Y but the one close to me is in a really bad part of town, granted it has a nice pool, the other one is clear across town. I went last year with a groupon but I had a friend going with me, I know I will not go alone.
What I want is to wake up early and run when it is 60 degrees. That isn't going to happen for awhile. I am pretty sure I am going to have to skip St. Louis. I am not making any decisions right now but seriously, I don't see a half marathon in me next month. I have high hopes for finishing Route 66 in November but I don't see another PR. I am going to call the fall running season a wash and start ramping up the pintrest training plans for spring.
Man I feel like a debbie downer. I really am feeling better!!
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