Ten things

1.  After a weekend of binging and getting back up to 126.8, I am back down to 122.2.  My original goal was 120 but I changed it to 118.  I think my body likes 122 though.

2.  I scheduled a fill for Monday, but since I am back down to my lowest weight I don't think he will give it to me.  Did I tell you I ate an entire cupcake?  I am not sure what I should do.

3.  Stress is as good as a fill.  I contribute my weight loss to the immense amount of stress and anxiety I am under.  I won't go into all of it because I know you all have stress of your own.  It is bad enough that I deactivated my Facebook account.  I am having serious withdrawls.

4.  I woke up with a rash all over my lower back.  Not sure what it is from; it could be from the spray tan I got last week, stress, the new tide color catchers I put in my wash, allergies...who knows but I want to go rub my back against a tree like a cat.

5.  Would love to take an hour of work but don't think that is possible because of the crap in number 3.  I am running the half marathon in Joplin Saturday, we are leaving after work but I need to run a few errands before I go. 

6.  I am supposed to go aqua jogging with a friend tonight.  I really need to be running errands but I know I need the exercise to help me from killing someone.  Not sure how the chlorine will affect the rash.  Which I guess I need to add to the list of possible causes?

7.  I am really anxious about the half on Saturday.  It is really hilly and the two girls I am going with say they plan on running it together.  I am a lot slower then them and I really don't want to feel like I am slowing them down.  The bad thing is there is a 3.5 hour cut off and I am a straight up 3:15 finisher.  I am making myself sick just thinking about the things that could go wrong and make me DNF.  I need to cut the shit out.

8.  Once I finish the Joplin half I will be eligible for half fanatics!!  Not that it means much to anyone but me but I am so super excited about it. 

9.  I wonder if I should go to minor emergency on my lunch break and have them look at my back.  Dennis just said he thinks it could be shingles....I had chicken pox twice, it can't be.

10.  I got a fortune cookie three months ago that says "Remember three months from this date, good things are in store for you" I am going to keep them to that promise.  I need good things after the week I have had!!