The good and the bad

My weight is down to 119.  Now that I am almost to my 118 goal I wonder if 115 is doable.  My friends are worried about me, thinking that I am going to keep lowering my goal until I make myself sick, but I really don't see that happening.  I love to eat what little bit I can.

I bought my first 'bikini' Monday.  It isn't really a bikini but it is not as long as a typical tankini.  It shows about the lower 1/3 of my tummy, below the belly button.  I really like the way I look in the suit.  I never thought I would see that day!! 

My doggie Hunter is doing great.  They removed a 15oz tumor from his groin.  It was just a fatty tumor but we were afraid it would impede his mobility.  He came home with an inflatable e-collar; which looks like a butt donut.  I laughed so hard at him.  He looked so cute.  I stayed home with him all weekend.  His daddy got nurse duty on Monday.  We took the butt donut off on Saturday and never put it back on him.  He didn't mess with the drain tube or the stitches.  I took him yesterday and got the drain tube removed.  They said everything looks great, stitches come out on Monday.

In not so good news, I found out my mom has colon cancer.  She is usually the most melodramatic person ever, but she is being kind of quiet about this, which worries me even more then if she were playing it up.  He goes in tomorrow for a PET scan and has the surgery on June 14.  Me and my little sister took her to get our nails done and shopping on Monday.  She said she knows it is crazy but ever since they told her she has had a stomach ache.  I told her if it were me I would probably rip my guts out knowing there is cancer growing inside me!  I am taking of work the afternoon of her surgery.  It isn't until 11:30 and is supposed to take 5 hours.  She will be in the hospital 5 days.  My other sister is being a total bitch about it, acting like my mom did this on purpose for attention.  They have several expensive boats and a lake house and she can't be bothered with this stuff.  My mom tried to call her yesterday and she wouldn't even answer the phone. Of course she was probably still sleeping off whatever damage she did to herself over the holiday.  I won't be surprised if she doesn't call or visit her at all. 

In light of everything else, I haven't exercised since the Joplin Half last Saturday.  Of course I am also getting my second injection in my knee.  Maybe taking it easy until that is over isn't a bad thing?  The weather is supposed to be really nice later this week so I will at least get a walk in, even if I don't feel like running yet.  I have the Color Run 5K in June (which isn't timed), after that I don't have another run until October, which will either be Kansas City half or the Tulsa Run 15K, maybe both, who knows how my running will be then.  I just hate to lose the momentum I have right now.

OK, gotta get my stuff together to go to the doctor.  Not looking forward to this AT.ALL