my big fat life

It has been a long week.  I had nothing positive to say so I kept it to myself.  Lets just say the only exercise I got last week was a lot of self flagellation. 

I finally had my workout schedule set up for the next month and found out Thursday that I will be sent off to the middle of nowhere for 3 weeks for work.  Not sure what the fitness facility looks like there.  There will be several of us in a van together so it isn't like I can get a temporary pass to the gym and work out there without a group vote of some kind.  Talk about a pain in the a$$

Friday I had really low day, I took off work to take Libby to the specialist and to the dentist, the two nights before my little terrier Sidney kept us up all night coughing so the combination of guilt and exhaustion led to an emotional breakdown. 

I drove through McDonalds and got a happy meal for lunch, with a coke.  Thinking back on it I pretty much just wanted my physical state to match my emotional state.  I knew that the burger wouldn't be comfortable to get down and I purposefully ate it faster than normal.  I think I might have had two drinks of the soda because it literally hurts to drink anything carbonated now.  I was miserable for a good 30 minutes and took some time to reflect on why I was doing this to myself....as I was walking through Marshalls thinking about how gross it would be to puke in the public restroom.

So yesterday I had my hair did and we decided we just needed to do something completely different.  We had been looking at a platinum/lilac combination for awhile and we just went for it.

 


sorry it's sideways.