TGIThursday!!

OK, this really isn't meant to be a downer post, I am, pretty much in a good place it has just been one hell of a week.

1.  Work is so busy.  I am working late whenever I can to get to the things that I haven't been able to update off my desk.  Tuesday night I stayed late and did data entry for some paperwork that was over a year old.  I am just glad it wasn't on my desk.  I volunteered to do another team members data entry since I had to work late anyway and it was from his stack.

2.  Found out Tuesday that my mom has to have chemo for 6 months/12 sessions.  The surgeon said he thought he got it all but since it had move to the lymph nodes they are going to do this just to make sure.  They told her that she will not get sick and will not lose her hair.  I have my fingers crossed.  She has to go to a class next week.  My dad is going with her but I am thinking about going with her too just to make sure I know what is going on. 

3.  I have had a lot of problems keeping food down.  I think it is stress and over 100 degree heat.  Monday I ran two miles and threw up 3 times.  I couldn't keep G2 or water down for about an hour after the run.  It was getting to the point I was freaking out a little.  Tuesday I ate sliced deli turkey and cheese for lunch.  I found out about my mom shortly after eating and threw up after that.  I never get sick on deli meat so I thought that was strange and wrote it off to stress.  Later that night, about maybe 10 or so I started really throwing up, not "stuck" throwing up.  I ended up sick all night.  Dennis said he was waiting for me to come get him to take me to the ER but I was really too sick to care and would have rather just sat at home and died.  I finally got to sleep and felt better about 4am.  I went to urgent care the next morning and they think I had food poisoning from the turkey.  They told me I really should have gone to the ER so they could monitor my band or take the fluid out but I seriously was too sick to care.  Everything feels fine so I am not too worried about it.  I go see the band doctor on August 6 and I am thinking about having some fluid taken out since I am throwing up so much.  I have never had that done before but I don't want to mess up the band and have to have it removed.

4.  My weight is down to 113 thanks to being sick.  My doctor told me last time I was in to stop losing and that was 5 pounds ago.  I really don't know how to stop.  I think 115 is where I want to stay. 

5.  Saturday is my boudoir pictures!!  I am so nervous!!  I don't make it a practice to prounce around in my unmentionables, let alone let someone take pictures of it!!  The girl that is doing the pictures is a master of lighting and posing so I hope she can do a good job hiding my rolls.  The pictures are at 11:00, I go get my make-up done at 9:30. 

6.  My sister is taking one of her newly adopted chihuahuas to have leg surgery on both of its legs tomorrow.  She adopted them from a place about an hour and a half away in OKC, she wants to just stay in the city since the drive is so long. I originally told her I would take off work and go with her but I am way too busy especially since I took off yesterday sick and I want to save some leave just in case my mom needs me for something oh, and the dog has to be there at 7:30 am!!  I think I would get a hotel and just go back to the room and sleep!   WTF are you going to do at 7:30 anyway?

7.  I want to take a nap, all of a sudden I can't seem to complete a thought. 

8.  Since I'm not going with my sister to OKC tomorrow I don't get to go to the Coach outlet.  So I went to the mall at lunch and bought the purse I almost bought last weekend but decided I really didn't need because it was too expensive, again with the not thinking straight ;-). 

9.  I am so ready for summer to be over (sorry RB Barbie).  I want to run outside without passing out from heat and to to the mall at lunch and not be run over by unsupervised pre-teens.

10.  My new medal board is supposed to be ready tomorrow!!  I have 4 medals to hang on it from this years races and I hope to have 2 more by the end of the year.  Which means I will need a new one in time for Christmas.  This one is going to say "HALF FANATIC #2424" my old one says "I RUN FOR BLING"  think I will put "one step at a time" on my next one.

one year photo - goal weight

Its time for ten things thursday again!!

1.  I ordered a Garmin 405 to replace my old 305 that is pretty much the size of a billboard on my wrist.  The idea was the new tech toy would motivate me to go run.  When it was 100 degrees at 7:30 the motivation just kind of went out the window.  My plan is to get up early Saturday and run; don't laugh it could happen. 

2.  I am having some serious problems at work with a boss that I thought was my friend.  She has been giving me next to impossible assignments to get done with very short deadlines.  She is also nit picking little comments that I make to other co-workers that are my friend that are completely innocent and not offensive in the least.  Well I got sick and was throwing up at work on Tuesday so I went home sick.  When I came in to work yesterday she made a comment about how I have to be careful with "what I eat and my stomach" and can't be gone sick all the time!!  I haven't taken honest to goodness sick leave since my surgery a year ago!!  I was so mad.  I talked to a couple of close friend that work in the building, both of them say she is really jealous of me and my success, she is used to being thin and has gained a lot of weight lately.  When I started to lose noticably she joined Jenny Craig.  My friend that had gastric bypass told me she could get in a lot of trouble for saying that to me.  Even if my band did make me sick, it is none of her business.  I just know that for someone that was supposed to be my friend, she is really riding me hard lately.  She retires in October and I am ready for her to go.

3.  I didn't go to water boot camp last night.  My stomach was still kind of ick from being sick on Tuesday and I just wanted to lay around.  I am going to try to get to one tonight but it starts at 5:15 and I am not sure I will get off work in time.

4.  One week from Saturday is my boudoir pictures!!  I can't decided if I am excited or scared shitless.  I need to find a few more things to bring with me so I have some options.  I just don't want to spend a fortune on stuff I will never wear again.  I am a t-shirt and pj shorts or fleece pj bottom kind of girl.

5.  The girl that did our couple pictures said the edits should be done today and I should have the rest of the pictures!!  I am both excited and nervous.

6.  I signed up for the Tulsa Route 66 half marathong in November.  Really need to get off my ass and start training.  Are you seeing a theme here?

7.  I ate nutter butters for breakfast (hanging my head in shame) but man they were good!!  Now I have to be careful with my lunch.  Maybe I will go pick up some soup for El Chico.

8.  One of the little chiuahuahas my sister adopted last week has to have surgery in OKC, which is over an hour away.  I really want to take off work Friday and go with her so I will have an excuse to blow this joint.  I have so much work to do I will never be caught up so why bother even trying.

9.  HMF is going out of town next week so I am on my own for aquajogging and boot camp.  They aren't nearly as fun when you don't have someone to laugh at/with.  Since my sexy picture are next week I am going to have to suck it up and go on my own.

10.  My sirius XM radio trial expires this month.  I am trying to decide if it is worth the money to renew it when I have an ipod I can sync and listen to for free.  I need to call and see if I can get a better deal then $45 a quarter because damn that is a lot of money for a radio signal!!

the down side of weight loss

OK, this entire post is probably TMI but if you can't share with your bloggy friends, who can you share with?

I have always been a "chesty" girl.  I even had a breast reduction surgery in my early 20's.  Unfortunately, when I gained weight after my 30's they just got big again.  Lately people have been making comments about the girls.  A friend at work asked me if they were saggy.  I told her I hadn't paid much attention to them but I didn't think so.  Then at my last doctor's appointment the nurse asked if I was ready to get the girls revamped...um, no.

Before I had my surgery I was a 36 d or dd depending on the bra.  Around the end of winter I started to wear a 34 C or 32 D but it didn't appear that the girls themselves were any smaller, just my chest itself. 

Last week during my time off I went shopping and saw that Dillard's was having a huge bra sell.  I picked up a few 34 C bras and tried them on.  The cups were too big!!  I looked for a B but they were all sexy demi bras and I am so used to the industrial strength undergarments that they just didn't fell right. 

The next day Dennis and I went to the water park.  I had on my tankini that is pretty low cut and thought I looked pretty darn good.  While we were sitting at the edge of the wave pool just letting the waves wash over us, he looked at me and asked in an honest to goodness question "why is your boob so wrinkly?"  Granted the bathing suit only shows a little side cleavage but enough to see that I didn't fill out the top and that indeed my girls were like medium sized prunes.  It is like someone let the air out of them over night.  Dennis asked me if I was going to go get them "squirted full of silicon now" to which I told him hell no, I have waited for years to not have big 'uns. 

If I ever do have that much needed tummy tuck, I might have them perked up a little but I can honestly say I have no desire to go back and make them big again. 

back to the routine

I am having a really hard time focusing today.  The 5 days I had off last week were just enough to make me not want to come back to work.  I have stuff piled up but can't seem to find it in myself to care yet.  I really wanted to call in disinterested to work this morning.

Had a very laid back and, well, lazy vacation.  Spent most of it reading the three Gillian Flynn books.  Very dark and strangely written books.  I didn't work out one time last week, unless you count the day we went to the water park.  It felt good to just not have to be anywhere.

Dennis' brother and his wife and kid (the royal family) came to town, as I am sure I told you earlier.  The royal SIL is batshit crazy and a raging alcoholic so it is always good times when she is around I say in a sarcastic tone.  The marriage is on it's last leg so she did a short stint in rehab.  Apparently it didn't take because she was fired from her job the week before they left for being drunk on the job and sending some really horrible text messages to her boss.  Anyway, while she was down here she was on her best drug induced behavior (judging from her slack jaw and distant stare).  We don't really speak anyway but this time we literally didn't say two words to each other.  MIL hid all the alcohol from her, which was kind of awkward.  Anyway, the visit went without incident.  However, I guess she went over the edge when they got home and flipped her shit.  They took her to the emergency room but they said there was nothing they could do, they would have to take her to a mental facility.  She refused to sign herself in so BIL kicked her out of the house and contacted his attorney to start divorce proceedings.  There are so many things about this relationship that I can't even begin to tell you how effed up it was.  This should have happened years ago.  They for sure put the fun in dysfunctional. 

Anyway, Dennis was getting text messages all weekend about that ordeal.  It makes us feel so happy to be a "normal" couple.  Wowza.

Did I tell you guys I am having boudoir pictures done next Saturday?  I went shopping for something to wear for that and I found a very sexy underwear outfit that will require me to buy stockings.  Not sure if I feel comfortable getting my picture taken in it but it is very sexy.  I need to find some red stiletto heals to borrow to go with it.  I will take a picture of it and let you guys see it.  I also bought a pair of girl boxers and a plain white tank top, which is much more my speed.  I am excited, nervous, and a little scared of this photo shoot!!

And in weight news, my scale went from 113.8 to 117.8 overnight, which I thought was weird.  It has shown 117.8 all weekend no matter what time of day it was.  So I changed the batteries.  116.2.  I think I may have worn these poor guys out.

OK, one more crazy story from the weekend and I really have to get to work.  We went to get sno cones a few days ago.  In the trash can by the sno cone hut was a dozen roses complete with the vase.  The note was gone, I did look.  You could tell the flowers were fresh but had been in the sun because they were starting to look very heat stressed.  Dennis and I joked about taking them out of the trash but we didn't, we were just joking.  Some couple came up behind us to order and they appeared to be drunk off their ass.  We sat on the back of my car and ate our sno cones and the drunk lady walked over, grabbed the roses out of the trash and put them in her car.  These flowers have some stories to tell!!

OK, really going to work now.

New picture

From the couple pictures we did last week. This is the only one we got so far. What suck Is all I can see is the fat roll on my side. Ugh

What I did on my bandiversary

Saturday was my one year bandivesary.  It is hard to grasp how much things have changed in one short year.

62 pounds lost
31 BMI to 20.5
36/38 D to 34 B bra
size 14/16 to size 0/2

I was so ashamed of my body and what I had let it become that I hated to see people that I hadn't seen for awhile.  Now I can't wait to see people that haven't seen me in a year! 

Dennis and I had pictures done on Saturday.  I haven't seen any of them yet but I am so excited. 

I want to put together a slide show showing pictures from my journey.  I know there are a bunch of online places that offer slide show programs, do any of you have one you recommend?