Small progress

It's been a strange week.  

Mental and emotionally it has been better than average.  Things have been so busy that I haven't had a lot of time to sit with my feelings.  Being at home has never really been the issue, work is always the trigger but I have been trying to just focus on the project I'm working on and not think to much about the big picture.  I think knowing I will be going to NYC soon.  I took a peak at the weather and it is going to be so freaking cold.  I will have to pack half my closet for 2.5 days.  Worth it.

Dennis still doesn't have the insurance thing worked out.  I called my benefits center, which is no small task (on hold for over 2 hours) to find out I can remove him from my insurance but still have to pay for self +1 so that's a pass.  I don't know what he's going to do.  I am on team shut the fuck up and deal with it in October during open season.  I'm still not going to take him off mine because I don't trust them and it is none of their business if he is on my  insurance or not.  I know he can't stack it but until I know what they do I am not going to risk it.  Having secondary coverage with his health issues are always a bonus.  

Late last week there was a business next door to them that got raided by ice. Part of the staff/volunteers were telling them where to hide.  Then there was the bitch that called the cops and told them exactly where they were going.  She also told them they were trying to steal cars.  There was a dozen of them and cameras so make that make sense.  One of the volunteers went on tiktok and told all about it and said the name of the person who called.  Dennis confirmed and said she was bragging about it.  They got so many comments and voice messages that they turned it all off.  I have been telling Dennis everyday when he leaves for work to make sure and tell Robin to go fuck herself.  Not going to work myself into a frenzy so I'll leave it at that.

Heather sent me a text and told me that the Hulu series The Lowdown was casting extra for the second season,  It's based off a real journalist from Tulsa.  It's another series from Sterlin Harjo, a local legand, who also did Reservation Dogs (one of the best series I have watched in a long time).  The first season was great with a ton of local artists staring in it.  Ethan Hawke stars in it and has turned into a real advocate for Tulsa.  But I digress.  We both put in to be extras and I got picked to be a 'business person'.  They also want my car which will earn it $20, lol.  They are shooting March 23rd and said they won't be able to give any details until the day before.  I am excited to see the filming stuff.  Maybe I'll get lucky and meet Tim Blake Nelson.  More to come.

I started logging my food again.  I was really good about making an attempt to eat at work.  I had chicken piccata on Monday.  I didn't eat much but I did eat.  I also put some broccoli in and ate all of it because it has a lot of vit C.  Tuesday was food truck day and I had about one and a half street tacos, but they were stuffed with chicken.  Wednesday was not so good.  I heated some chicken tender and just couldn't force them down.  I probably ate a half of one before the nausea just would let me swallow another bite.  Granted I went home and ate chicken broccoli rice.  Even got seconds.  I have found a market that makes take home meals and I have really like all of them.  Dinner is always better and I had beef stroganoff Monday and stuffed peppers on Tuesday.  Not sure about tonight, I might just eat a pb sandwich because I had the rest of the chicken broccoli for lunch and made a happy plate.  The people at work who think I have an eating disorder can suck it.

That being said, I was 89 pounds when I weighed this week.  I kind of cheated and weighed in the evening but I needed to see some progress.  I am not happy with how I look right now and how incredibly exhausted I am all the time but I really don't know what else I can do.

I will have to go back to the market and get some more for next week.  I have one philly steak pasta in the freezer that I need to take out for tomorrow and then I am out.  They normally have a special on Saturday.

Not sure what next week has in store.  I know I have to lead a training on Monday and get ready for another one the week after I get back from NYC.  I really hate doing webinars because there is no participation and I just feel like I am talking into a void.