MIA

I didn't realize how long I have been gone. 

I went to the doctor yesterday for a general check-up to renew one of my medications.  She told me that she hardly recognized me.  She also told me that my goal of 20 more pounds may not be sustainable and not to get frustrated.  According to her, she is shorter than me and only weighs 15 pounds less.  I promised her I wouldn't get obsessive about it.

She also got on to me for not wearing my HRM when I run.  I have a slight heart condition that causes my heart rate to get up into the 200's during exercise.  I was on medication to regulate it but the medication is what started my weight gain and it makes me feel "lazy".  I had a gazillion tests done with the cardiologist and my heart is healthy, just a little fast.  The cardiologist said if I start passing out when it gets to high we will have to revisit medication.  Back to my point.  If my heart rate gets over 200 while I run I have to take a walk break.  I do 1 minute run 1 minute walk intervals to try to keep it under control but she wants me to start documenting it.  My handy dandy little Garmin will chart it all and I have to bring it in next time I see her.  However, my pulse was 55 when I saw her so maybe it is getting better with the weight loss?

My weight loss has kind of stalled a little, I blame December.  I am at 143.6 on my home scale, the doctor scale had me a little less (fully clothed I might add).  I am pretty sure I was at 149 when I went for my last fill.

Another thing, I have talked about with Dennis and with my regular doctor and they don't want me to get another fill until May.  I am signed up to do the Little Rock half marathon in March; I am doing OKC with my friend from work the last weekend in April and I hope Flying Pig the weekend after that.  They are afraid I will not be able to fuel well enough if I keep getting fills.  I understand where they are coming from but dang it I only have 20 pounds to go!!  I don't want to slow down now.  Is this the obsessive my doctor was talking about?

In Christmas news, all the presents are bought and would have been wrapped last night if I hadn't ran out of tape.  I am pretty sure I am getting a Kindle Fire from Dennis, I can't wait for that.

I finally felt the emotional vice grip of the band last night. My older sister called around noon Tuesday and said that her Neapolitan Mastiff, Fiona had collapsed and they had to rush her to the vet. Fiona is a very rare breed, but my sister found and adopted her from a local animal shelter. She was able to trace her back to the original breeder, who offered to buy her back, but my sister told her no way since she obviously sold her to someone who would dump her at a kill shelter. But I digress. I was with my sister when she got Fiona, I named her after the Shrek character because she looks and acts like a big beautiful ogre.  When they got to the vet she was completely blind, which was a sudden onset, and was having seizures several times a day.  They decided she had some kind of cancer (I didn't ask what type).  While we were eating dinner yesterday my sister sent me a text and told me the vet gave Fi 6-8 months to live if they did aggressive chemo.  They didn't know if she would ever get her eyesight back.  So they decided to put her down.  Everything that I had eaten that hadn't passed through the band came up almost immediately.  I had never felt anything like that.  I puked, cried a lot and felt better.  I know they did the right thing.  In the middle of my little melt down Dennis asked me if I would feel better if he gave me my Christmas present early....which leads me to believe it is the Fire because it is the only thing I know that he knows might make me feel better.

I can't wait for Christmas!!