long rant...sorry

I have noticed that since I had my surgery 3 months ago I have always had someone with me when I go out to eat that knows about my surgery and kind of acts as a buffer to the people that don't know.  Since I have had my last two fills and have good restriction I hadn't been out to eat at all; until yesterday.  I went to a Chinese buffet with some co-workers, two that knew two that didn't.  I am still having the eyes bigger than the stomach syndrome so I got way more food than I could possibly eat.  About half way through the meal when almost everyone was going back for seconds one of the non-knowers asked me if I was feeling alright because I sure wasted my money on the food.  I just told him that I was pretty sure there was MSG in the food and it was making my stomach blah.

Tonight I am going out to eat with my older sister and the parental unit.  None of them know about the band.  I really wish D would go with me so I could sneak food over on his plate but I guess it is time I figure out how to handle these situations.  I have put off this dinner for 3 weeks so it is time to face the music.  I have no intention of ever telling my Mom about the surgery.  She is one of those people that, when I was at my largest, just assumed we were the same size.  Not normally an issue except that I worked out at least 3 days a week and she doesn't move ever.  She swears she is a size 14/16, brags about it even but can't wear pants without elastic waist.  She is all the time calling me wanting to borrow clothes.  Well I am almost in a 10 now but she hasn't noticed, or at least hasn't said anything about it.  So if she knew I had the surgery she would just have a great time with that.

Then there is the fact that my mother can't keep her mouth shut.  She is that person who posts things on facebook saying "please keep so and so in your thoughts and prayers today because....."  It seems nice but it is just her way of being a busy body and letting everyone know what is going on.  Let's take my heart condition for example.  I discovered I had an alarming high heart rate while running a 5K with a veteran runner whose wife is an RN.  Our goal was a PR for me until he saw how fast my heart rate was (I think it was 215) and he made me walk.  They almost made me go to the hospital that night but I kept telling them it was normal and I would call my doctor the following Monday and have it checked out.  Several tests and hundreds of dollars later it turns out I have something called inappropriate sinus tachycardia.  It is minor, nothing serious and it doesn't even required medication unless it gets uncomfortable or I start passing out. 
So I told my Mom about it so she would know since it is likely her or my dad has the same thing.  I asked her to please not discuss it with anyone because it wasn't a big deal and I didn't want everyone freaking out thinking I was going to die.  Twice she called me from a different aunts house asking me what my 'condition' is called so they could ask their doctor about it.  I refused to tell her and said as far as they were concerned I don't have any 'condition'.  Oh mothers.

Then there is my sister who will get drunk and tell everyone. 

I rest my case.  Not that I think it is a big deal but I am very private about my health and it is up to me to tell people not them.

OK, so on to smaller and better things.  Really tough workout last night.  Did circuits with the trainer, one of which nearly killed me I swear.  But I left the gym feeling better about myself than I have in awhile and every time I set down or stand up I remember it all over again, lol.