crash and burn

I am stuck in bandster hell and let me tell you, it sucks!!  This weekend eating was not good, not entirely bad but compared to what I have been eating.  Saturday I ate a protein bar for breakfast and no matter how hard I try I can't eat a protein bar without milk, plus added protein.  We had a lot of errands to run so we went out for lunch and I got chicken strips; could have eaten them all but I didn't.  Could have eaten all of them PLUS french fries but I knew better then to order them.  Later that day I found a bag of cheetos, I think that pretty much says it all.  Normally after eating that much I wouldn't be hungry for dinner but D made some strange hamburger concoction with okra and corn in it.  I knew better then to try that so I took some out and melted some cheese over it and ate it like a burrito.

Yesterday was a little better but not by much.  I ate bread for the first time, an entire grilled cheese sandwich to be exact.

I called my doctors office this morning and begged them for a fill a "little" early.  They told me 18 days out from surgery I am just going to have to tough it out.

What really sucks is this time next week I will be on my way to Jackson MS for work so I will be eating out 3 times a day.  In Jackson MS.  Where they deep fat fry sweet tea.  I know I will get through it, my fill is scheduled for August 3 but that seems like a lifetime away right now.
To make matters worse it is so hot outside that after I get home from work I don't want to leave the house.  It is hot in my house with the A/C, ceiling fans and floor fans going.  I can't believe it is hotter in Oklahoma than on the coast of Texas.  There is something really wrong with that.

And finally the icing on the proverbial cake.  I realized that the battery in my scale was wonky.  I replaced it last night and this morning I was up 2 pounds from what it had been saying I  weighed.  Not sure if all the recreation eating is catching up to me or if the scale was wrong because of the battery, regardless, that is 2 freaking pounds.  And as ridiculous as it sounds it is making me feel extremely fat today (and cranky if you hadn't caught on to that by now).

BLAH