Scurvy

 Unexpectedly got my last test result back from the doctor last week.  I assumed since I hadn’t heard anything it was all good, but apparently, they retested it because it was unexpected.  Turns out I have no detectable vitamin C.  They have me taking 1000 mg of vit C along with what is in my multi-vitamin that I take.  I will be retested in 6 weeks to see if we need to do something else.  I am starting to think I need to call the gastro and see if I need to have another scope done to see if there are absorption issues.  I hate taking vitamins because they are so big and the liquid and gummies taste terrible.  I don’t want to be the statistic that gets scurvy so I will suck it up.  Dennis went to the grocery store and bought a huge bag of oranges, lol.

 

I do feel like I am spiraling a little.  I sent my therapist a message to see if I can get a sanity check.  I have an appointment Feb 6, looks like I’m not the only one.  I haven’t been to see here since before Christmas and we talked then about how we would probably be seeing each other after the election.  I do feel like my coping skills have gotten better but a check in every now and again is probably warranted.  I am going to try and lay the groundwork for reasonable accommodations once the return to work 5 days a week order is put in place, so I probably need to get that started.  Not sure if she would be able to do that or if she can get that done, if my medical doctor would do it with all my health issues or if I need to get a referral to a psychiatrist.  Whatever it takes.  I have already asked to switch work areas with a co-worker to show I am trying to help myself.  I also need to talk to our EEO person to see what she can do to help.  She is a little on the cray side, and not in a good way, so I try to avoid that office as much as possible.  She wears me out.

 

I have been having the strangest dreams lastly.  I had one that the gate attendant that I befriended when I was a baby ranger died, and I went to his house to sit with his family.  It isn’t out of the realm of possibility because he is in his 90’s and is showing signs of dementia but it really bummed me out for the day when I woke up and had to check my messages to see if he was ok.  Last night I had a dream that a few of the fingers on my left hand were numb and swollen and I ran into a doctor in our office, and they did x-rays on the copy machine.  When I woke up two of my fingers were in fact really swollen but that is not unusual.  Then there was the dream that I shit the bed, I assure you it was, in fact, just a dream.  Oh, and the one where I moved to a ran down apartment and there were puppies hiding in the walls and we had to knock down most of the apartment to rescue them.  They were everywhere.  And I wonder why I am exhausted when I wake up.  I have always had really vivid dreams, but it seems they have been really bad this week. 

 

Friday, I took off work to get my hair done.  I told her I needed some kind of change, so she cut it above the shoulders and faded out the color a little.  We have a plan for the color but it needs to fade a little more so it will be March before we make that change.  It always takes forever to get my hair done.  I got there at 10 and my stomach started growling as she was rinsing the first process out.  She said that the people who own their building was bringing in food for them as a belated Christmas lunch thing.  When we got to a stopping point there were 2 huge pans of lasagna and chicken fettucine and an amazing salad from a local place.  Hayley said there was so much food they told them to let their guests eat so we sat and ate.  It was a good day.  It is taking a little getting used to with my shorter hair, but I like it. 

Saturday, I ran a few errands, picking up groceries and such.  I am holding strong to my spending cutbacks.  However, I needed to charge something on my Dillard’s card, or they were going to close the account.  I have worked really hard on my credit score, and I really don’t want to take a hit, so I bought a few things at the outlet center.  I really had to search for something too because nothing just jumped out at me. 

 

Speaking of spending, I am probably going to have a minor setback.  I have a meeting in Pittsburg in March and my sister wants to meet me in NYC the weekend after.  The hotels aren’t as expensive as I expected, and I have a credit for American Airlines.  I want to see Death Becomes Her and Barbie wants to see Sunset Boulevard.  Most of the contracts for The Outsiders expire later that month so we kind of want to see it again with most of the OBC.    We could probably get tickets through TDF cheaper than through the box office, so I have my eye out.  We haven’t booked anything yet, but we are looking for deals.  I am ready to move to the East Coast.

 

Saturday night HMF and I went out to eat and to see Les Mis.  Honestly that was the show I was least looking forward to, but it was really good.  Not my favorite storyline but the vocals were amazing.  We decided to branch out and try something different for dinner.  We went to a place called Hole Mole and had great food and a very strong margarita.  I would for sure go back there.  The next show is Clue and I think that will be fun.  We got tickets for another touring show, Addam’s Family through a different touring group that is going to be at a different performing arts center next month.  I am interested in seeing how that plays out.  I got the tickets for HMF for Christmas, the show is mid-February on a Thursday night.  The show itself is supposed to be fun so we will see.

 

Sunday, I went to my mom’s.  My sister was there, and I took them out to lunch.  That was pretty much all I did that day.  The existential dread for the workweek hit hard. 

 

I am looking forward to the weekend.  I am taking off work on Friday and meeting Brooke in Dallas to see & Juliet.  We have a few things planned, going to the Fluevog store, visiting Meow Wolf, maybe getting the matching tattoos we have been talking about for years.  We are staying Thursday and Friday night, we will probably wish we stayed Saturday night too but Brooke is in Dallas now for a meeting and I know she will want to have a day at home to decompress. 

 

Work is about to pop off and I really should be getting my slide deck ready for several training sessions that start next week.  Ugh.