rambles

 I don't have much to say but I am not ready to start working so here I am.  

Yesterday was my rheumatology check up.  I don't weigh myself anymore because it turns into a thing so I was a little anxious about what I would see.  It was 102 and some change.  I was shocked as I feel like I have been eating a lot lately.  Dennis said that he thinks that my perception of 'a lot' is skewed.  I have become addicted to plain milk chocolate snack sized bars.  I couldn't tell you how many I eat in a day.  It is my vice.  I keep swearing I wasn't going to buy another bag and somehow it just ends up in my cart.  Anywho, the doctor said that my hands looked ok, he could feel the creaking in my thumb but said that he would refer me to a hand surgeon to get a shot because hands are very complex to try and give a shot in.  I told him that I can deal with the pain as long as I don't lose my grip strength, if/when that happens I will get back with them.  He had me do bloodwork, which is my least favorite part.  I told them at the lab that I'm a passer outer so they put me in the room with the table.  The girl that did the draw was amazing.  She started with the butterfly, which they rarely do and only stuck me once!  Normally they try a regular needle, blow a vein, move to a different vein, get nothing, change arms before they get it out of a juicy vein on the side of my forearm.  I got this ladies name because I will come when she is on schedule.  I got some of the results back yesterday afternoon and my sed rate is up and my Vit D is low, which could be why my motivation to do anything has been nil and my head has been killing me.  He ordered a Vit C test too but it hasn't come in yet.  I will go to TJ's this weekend and get some D3 as per his instructions.  I imagine I will need C too so I will wait and see what the lab says.  The doctor seemed a lot more thorough this time, he is normally really rushed.  I usually prefer to see his PA because he is a lot more personable and seems to have a bit more time.  There are a very limited number of rheumatologist here so I imagine he is always busy.  

I looked up the requirements for VSIP/VERA yesterday (our early retirement buyout system) if jackass does go through with the reduction in workforce I would qualify but they only give $25-50K.  That won't be enough for me to even think about it.  At 53 I have way too long to go before I can access any kind of real retirement without taking a huge hit, that won't cut it.  I did sign up for a retirement seminar April 2.  Dennis keeps telling me I need to wait until I am 60 to retire but I tell him 58 and I'm out if I am not in jail by then.  We will have to see what happens though because I might not have a choice depending on my TSP account.  We also talked about him getting his SS started since he turned 62 last year.  I know he would probably get more money if he waited but since he isn't working and is worried about getting some kind of income I think it's a no brainer.  His back problems are bad enough that he has to get an ablation every 2 or 3 month, takes 2 different pain meds daily and he had a stroke several years ago that effected his processing so he should see about disability too.  He is reluctant but what does he have to lose?  I am not sure what he will do.  He is on my insurance but he might be better off using medicare, I think the one my mom uses pays more than mine.  I haven't pushed him on it because I don't want him to think I want him off my insurance, I really don't care that much.  However, if he does drop off, I might switch to a lower tier.  

Work is always an issue.  Well, not work so much as AP.  It is budget season and the office is LOUD with people in for various meetings.  I made the comment yesterday that I was having a hard time concentrating over the noise even with my headphones in.   Her reaction was to talk about how wonderful it is to have a full office again and how she was so happy to have people back.  She must have a terrible home life, that's all I can think.  However, I have noticed that she is either in someone's office talking, has someone in her office, or is on the phone (meeting or chatting, is anyone's guess) so work is her social time.  Plus it makes her feel important.  She made the comment to me that I was just going to have to adjust to the noise again.  No bitch, I think I am going to try and get my doctor to do a reasonable accommodation for my ADD instead.  I think I am going to talk to our deputy and see if I can move my work area to where I am not right outside a busy conference room.  I'm not sure where they would put me but it isn't my problem. She also sent me a message asking me what my telework days were this week.  I told her Monday and Friday because she wants to have one on one meeting with everyone 😡😒and she set mine for Thursday, which is when I normally telework.  We have a ranger trainee in the office this month and she is looking for someone to 'take' her Friday.  I told her I switched my days because of the meeting and just left it at that.  If it is that important to her she can reschedule our pointless meeting.  

I asked our emergency management office about LA and right now they have 4 people there and that is all they are sending for now.  I have a feeling they might get a debris mission once everything has settled depending on the jackass and his ego trips since he didn't win in CA I can see him limiting and/or delaying aid.  God I am not looking forward to the next 4 years.  Maybe Denmark will win the war, lol.

I'm really not sure what all this week has in store.  Maybe getting my Vit D regulated will help with my laziness a little. I just don't want to do anything.  I need to find a website or get a virtual training program started and take advantage of our fitness program but I just can't even be bothered with that.  Speaking of, I need to go to our security office and sign the release for the gym so I can get my access back.  They did away with access during covid and I just never got mine reactivated because gyms gave me the ick after.  I am also trying to find a good budgeting app to help me maximize my TSP contributions and balance my accounts a little better.  I need to take money out of my checking and put it into my CU savings but I am always afraid I will need it.  Not that I can't do transfers.  I am not good when it comes to finances and if I could get someone to just take it all the way over and give me a lump sum every 2 weeks that I can spend I would be so much better off.  

Signing off with my OOTD from yesterday.  I got so many compliments on it and Brooke wanted to see so I did an elevator selfie.  I had no intentions of being that matchy but the shoes were perfect for that dress.  

Ignore the hair, I’m going in next Friday to get it touched up