I finally got my band filled again. He put 2.5cc in to replace the 4 or so he took out. I am miserable. Why you ask? Well I am a rocket surgeon who didn't even think about getting a pretty big fill before I reached for and ate a quarter of a chocolate cherry oatmeal cookie. I have been in pain and sick ever since. I tried to go to bed at 10 but literally was up every hour getting sick. I know I have to be swollen pretty bad so I am sipping on some hot tea and trying to get my stomach to feel normal. Calling in sick isn't an option right now because of all the OT I am working so I will just have to suck it up. I am so freaking tired and just threw up the hot tea. I wonder if it might be some kind of oddly timed stomach bug? I have never had a problem like this with my band.
My appointment was a 2 yesterday and I made an appointment to see the dentist who put the crown on that broke at 3. The waiting room was packed but they share it with an eye surgeon so I wasn't that concerned. About 2:30 I went up and asked how much longer it would be because I had to get my tooth fixed also. Dr. A's rep came out and said it would be at least 20 more minutes. I was so mad. I could have worked an hour longer and saved my sick leave. I told her I had to leave, I couldn't sit there and wait and risk having to take another few hours of leave to reschedule. I told her that I can't take off work another day and that I was getting furloughed next month and I wouldn't be able to come in until the but I can't afford to pay $150. Why don't they call and tell you the doctor is running late? I was so frustrated. My weight was 128.8, on my scale this morning it was 122.8
The dentist went pretty smooth. They had to numb up my left side to get the rest of the crown off. I felt like a stroke victim. I got that taken care of, I now have a temporary crown and go back to have the permanent crown put on June 20 at 11:00. I have never been to the dentist so many times in my life!! I asked the dentist how much this was going to cost me and they told me it was no cost. Finally a break!!
I called Dr. A's office back to see if they could get me in and they told me to come back over. I sat in a room for 15 minutes and Dr. A came in and said he was running late to a meeting and had to be quick. Seriously. Then he went over my file asking me questions about depression and stuff. I was like my dog died less than a month ago in my arms, um, yeah, a little depressed.
When I went to check out with his nurse she asked me how my dogs were doing and I broke down and cried in the freaking doctor's office. I swear I have never cried so much in my life, just talking about this is making me tear up. It might have helped though because the nurse said that if I needed anything and she would make me an under the table deal and won't charge me but she is the only one that can do it so call her directly.
I have an appointment with another counselor today. This one was referred to me by a vet friend. She is certified in pet bereavement so I have faith that this won't be a waste of time and money like the last one. Since I was self pay for my band I never had to do the whole psych eval. this lady will probably be like "holy shit, you are a train wreck". Not looking forward to going because I know I will cry like a freaking baby and I forgot to wear waterproof mascara today but I hope it will help.
I need to start running again but it is going to have to wait until I can keep some food down. I don't even care about it at all right now. I have a half in St. Louis in October and I really want to beat the 3:00 hour mark so I have to get my increasingly growing ass moving.
This week is going to be busy. I am going to work 2 hours over tomorrow and Thursday. Friday is our picnic, I plan to leave early, go home and shower, and head to Tulsa Tough bike races to help with race registration. Saturday I am going to work from home and Sunday we go see the Lion King. This will be the first time in a very long time that I haven't been at the race from start to finish or volunteered everyday. It is going to feel really strange but I have to be a grown up, ick.
My appointment was a 2 yesterday and I made an appointment to see the dentist who put the crown on that broke at 3. The waiting room was packed but they share it with an eye surgeon so I wasn't that concerned. About 2:30 I went up and asked how much longer it would be because I had to get my tooth fixed also. Dr. A's rep came out and said it would be at least 20 more minutes. I was so mad. I could have worked an hour longer and saved my sick leave. I told her I had to leave, I couldn't sit there and wait and risk having to take another few hours of leave to reschedule. I told her that I can't take off work another day and that I was getting furloughed next month and I wouldn't be able to come in until the but I can't afford to pay $150. Why don't they call and tell you the doctor is running late? I was so frustrated. My weight was 128.8, on my scale this morning it was 122.8
The dentist went pretty smooth. They had to numb up my left side to get the rest of the crown off. I felt like a stroke victim. I got that taken care of, I now have a temporary crown and go back to have the permanent crown put on June 20 at 11:00. I have never been to the dentist so many times in my life!! I asked the dentist how much this was going to cost me and they told me it was no cost. Finally a break!!
I called Dr. A's office back to see if they could get me in and they told me to come back over. I sat in a room for 15 minutes and Dr. A came in and said he was running late to a meeting and had to be quick. Seriously. Then he went over my file asking me questions about depression and stuff. I was like my dog died less than a month ago in my arms, um, yeah, a little depressed.
When I went to check out with his nurse she asked me how my dogs were doing and I broke down and cried in the freaking doctor's office. I swear I have never cried so much in my life, just talking about this is making me tear up. It might have helped though because the nurse said that if I needed anything and she would make me an under the table deal and won't charge me but she is the only one that can do it so call her directly.
I have an appointment with another counselor today. This one was referred to me by a vet friend. She is certified in pet bereavement so I have faith that this won't be a waste of time and money like the last one. Since I was self pay for my band I never had to do the whole psych eval. this lady will probably be like "holy shit, you are a train wreck". Not looking forward to going because I know I will cry like a freaking baby and I forgot to wear waterproof mascara today but I hope it will help.
I need to start running again but it is going to have to wait until I can keep some food down. I don't even care about it at all right now. I have a half in St. Louis in October and I really want to beat the 3:00 hour mark so I have to get my increasingly growing ass moving.
This week is going to be busy. I am going to work 2 hours over tomorrow and Thursday. Friday is our picnic, I plan to leave early, go home and shower, and head to Tulsa Tough bike races to help with race registration. Saturday I am going to work from home and Sunday we go see the Lion King. This will be the first time in a very long time that I haven't been at the race from start to finish or volunteered everyday. It is going to feel really strange but I have to be a grown up, ick.
Oh Terrie, life just keeps throwing shit at you and you keep moving. I hope it gets a little easier and I'm so glad you're going to the counselor!
ReplyDeleteHope you get feeling better soon... that stuck feeling, not being able to eat is horrible!
ReplyDeleteI hope the new counselor will be able to help you cope with the stress of grieving.
ReplyDeleteThat vomiting doesn't sound right. I hope you'll call your doctor back if it persists.
I had to do the psych eval even though I too paid for the band myself. It was my surgeon's requirement, and I figure it protects him and me both. I'm sure I jumped through almost as many hoops as a patient who is covered by insurance--I just didn't have to wait as long or do a medically supervised diet.
you have so much going on, I hope things settle down sooner than later.
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