Springtime in OK

 I used to have severe storm anxiety when I was a kid but as I got older it mostly went away.    I seriously thought when people talked about tornado alley they were talking about the highway that ran by our house. A lot of my childhood memories involve the storm cellar 😳.

 I can say since I have lived on my own I have only ever been scared/concerned 3 times that I can remember.  One was just from the look on Dennis's face after he walked in the house, the second when the tornado went over my old office building about 6 miles from my house, the last is the Father's Day storm last year.  We only took shelter the first time.  I think that last storm has reawakened some of the irrational part of the fear I had when I was a kid.   Of course radar wasn't near what it is now.  We have a commercial from one of our local weather gods that has him saying what time a tornado was going to hit an area that cuts to a family holding up a clock that showed the exact time the storm hit their home.  That and being older and having a better understanding and appreciation of storms has kept me calm.  Let me tell you that is not the case this year.  I am freaking out with just about every storm.  This last one we had felt like there was literal electricity in the air.  I ended up taking a valium to keep me from a panic spiral.  It ended up hitting 40ish miles outside of where I live. Close enough that we had to do the accountability check in robocall for work.  Our Chief's parent live there and his dad rode it out in the closet,  He is fine but the house is destroyed.  Just wow.  

I haven’t been doing much, I remember just how much I love teleworking though.  AP has been an ass hat as usual.  If I don’t respond almost immediately to her messages she will call me.  She was copied on some stuff I needed to update, which I did but she threw a fit that I didn’t send her a message letting her know it had been done.  She has way too much time on her hands.

Thursday I had my follow up with the surgeon.  My weight was about 101, which he was happy with.  He said I am still swollen and I told him I was still sore.  He said that the spot that hurt was where they took the band out and he expects it to be sore for awhile but it will hurt me before I can hurt it.  I would like to go to dance on Wednesday but I forgot to ask him about it.  I will probably wait another week.  He did say I could start eating real food but that I needed to  take it easy.  I stopped and got a burger for lunch and stopped at Costco to get grapes because those were the two things I had been craving.  

I had made plans for Mother’s Day with my mom and the mil and I got a call while I was shopping from Dennis saying his mom was going to call me.  Apparently his sister got off her ass and made plans for MD lunch and that offer looked better than the one we had.  It really hurt Dennis’s feelings but I pretty much expected it.  The worst part is that Friday was his birthday so it was kind of a MD/birthday thing but she didn’t give a fuck.  His family has a history of waiting until the last minute, or at least waiting to invite us or the parents for whatever occasion they are planning until a day or to before.  I didn’t expect any different this time.  I guess Dennis told his mom that since I had invited her and made the plans she needed to call me and cancel with me.  I have never heard her more uncomfortable. Again, I expected it especially since the great grandkid was born in March.  I even asked her when I invited her about it and she made sure to tell me that they hadn’t planned anything so she was looking forward to going. Dennis did get a text from his sister Friday saying that we are invited over for dessert after lunch. He sent her a message back saying that mil had accepted an invitation from me but had since changed her mind, which he had several thoughts about.  She noped out of that conversation quick.  Of course he is still working his ass off at his mom's house.  I don’t get it, that is what gets me.  When someone tells me I am their second choice I tend to reciprocate.  He said “there are some things I need to finish up” but whatever.  Instead of going to eat with us he went to her house and worked and she went to eat at his sister’s.  That made irked me at Dennis.  He told me later that he ate a can of soup for lunch.  I told him I didn't feel bad for him because that was his choice.

Friday was his birthday and he was all pissy.  We met with the contractor to sign the contract and give the deposit on the roof.  They aren’t going to be able to start until mid-June, but that is probably for the best because I probably don’t want to be working from home while they are doing it.  We are trying to figure out a plan of action for Bai but we have a few weeks to figure it out.  Plus it depends on weather and storms.  We did go eat at one of our favorite places, The Brook.  I got chicken fajita nachos and he got fish and chips.  They have the best fries and I swear those were the best nachos I have ever put in my face hole.  I got a half order and only ate about half of them, but I did inhale some of Dennis’s French fries.  I was pretty tired by the time I got home and fell asleep early.  I regret that now because they had predicted a chance to see the aurora.  I thought it would never happen but some of the rangers posted some amazing photos not far from me.  Oh well.  Still on the bucket list.

I told my mom I was going to skip going over on Saturday and go over after work on Wednesday instead.  I had a few things I needed to do that would have been a pita to drag her to.  I have to get some money moved around for the roof project, take my old ipad in to the Verizon store, and go to Target (they never have an electric cart charged).  They have the cutest dresses and with the sore spot on my stomach the little summer dresses they have are perfect and inexpensive.  Anything with a waistband just rubs and is uncomfortable.  My friend that does my nails lives across from SuperTarget and she just happened to call while I was there so I went by and saw her.  Her dog and cats were so happy to see me, lol.  

That brings me to today, Mother's Day.  We had 11:30 reservations at Ti Amos, our normal holiday spot.  They do sort of a buffet with a ton of variety and the food is always good.  It was just me, my mom, and my little sister.  I usually get a small plate and just a little bit of everything and go back and get more of the cream pasta and chicken piccata instead of dessert. Just as I sat down a waitress dropped a plate and I saw something splatter.  I didn't think much of it until I started to smell ketchup a few minutes later.  I moved my arm and realized the ketchup had splatter all over me.  Thankfully I didn't feel up to putting a lot of effort in so wore a Shein dress and a pair of Rothy's.  I have never been more happy with my decision not to wear my Fluevogs.  If I had gotten ketchup stain on a pair I would have not ben nearly as mild mannered about the incident.  No one said anything to us when the plate fell but I got up and asked a member of the waitstaff to get me a bunch of napkins.  I went to the bathroom and one or the waitresses followed me to try and help me get it all off.  When I tell you it was all over me, I mean it was all over me.  When we thought we found it all we would find more.  The manager came over and game me her card in case I couldn't get the stain out but I'm not really worried about it as cleaning would cost more than the dress.  It wiped off the shoes.  The smell was the worst and kind of killed my appetite.  My meal was comped but it was just an accident and our waiter didn't do it so I left more of a tip to make up for it.  The biggest issue was I had a few things I wanted to do on my way home.  There is an Old Navy close so I stopped in and got a little swing dress they had 50% off and ended up loving it so much I ordered another in a different color when I got home.  

Tomorrow Dennis has an appointment with the cardiologist to go over the latest results of his stress test.  His cardiologist team is supposed to be amazing but not the best at communication so he wants me to go with him.  Tuesday I have an appointment with the rheumatologist.  My left thumb has been clicking and popping really bad so I will be curious to see what he has to say.  I normally see the PA but this time I will be seeing the actual doctor.  Wednesday I am taking my mom to dinner, which might be something I start doing instead of going on the weekend and wasting an entire day.  Thursday I have my annual performance review virtually, curious to see how that turns out since I have a lot to say about AP.  

Till next time